Life lessons

On taking a leap

Last week, I resigned from my job. Not to move on to another role but rather, to focus on my solo private practice and writing. It was a decision I made on the last day of work before I went on annual leave and it was a relief to finally officially let my manager know when I returned to work.

When I started 2022, I had the plan to leave by the end of the year. I’d hoped to gradually build my solo private practice to a point where I didn’t have to work for an organisation as well. But as January turned into February, my enthuasism to show up for work each day was waning. It was hard to get motivated. We had a planning week in early February to focus on our little projects for the year. Nothing filled me with joy. Nothing excited me. Nothing.

Then, one of my team resigned and my first thought was ‘fuck, they got in before me.’

My manager had been surprised by this person’s resignation and it kinda derailed our plans a bit. So when she had a meeting with me later that week, I gave her the heads up that I wasn’t happy, that I might look to move to private practice. I decided on a new timeframe – June maybe.

But within a month, my referrals started to grow. I got some via schools, some via the medical practice I use rooms at, some via a GP I went and introduced myself to and had coffee with, and most importantly, some via word of mouth. It wasn’t a huge amount of referrals but enough to make me realise juggling that plus four days of employed work was just bloody exhausting. It was affecting my ability to write too.

On my last day before leave, I had my own clinical supervision and my supervisor asked me what was stopping me from resigning now.

‘Fear. Worry. Anxiety.’

I realised if I needed to do justice to my private clients, I needed to give up my employment. I needed to nurture my private practice with time and effort. I needed to spend time upskilling myself, resting enough and not spread myself thinly.

The same evening, when I returned home, I received an email informing me that I was invited to participate in a three-month creative nonfiction writing program with a small group of ten people. I realised I’d be stupid to not accept this opportunity. But again, there was no way I’d be able to do it working the amount I was working.

So that sealed the deal.

Telling my manager last week that I’m leaving was a relief. I slept the best I had that night.

I know the months ahead are not smooth-sailing or easy by any means but I have to give it a go. I have to take a leap.

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  • Barbara Loefgren
    23 March 2022 at 1:02 pm

    Congratulations for taking such a bold decision! It sounds like the right thing to do and lots of opportunities opening up for you too.

  • Reema D'souza
    24 March 2022 at 2:42 am

    It takes a lot of courage to make that decision! Congratulations! And wishing you the best for all that you want to do!

  • Vinitha
    24 March 2022 at 8:14 am

    It’s going to be a fantastic journey ahead, Sanch. I am so happy for you. You are one of the few bloggers I know who still continue to blog. You know, seeing your posts give me hope and I am not kidding. I am amazed to see how well you prioritize both writing and your day job. So much to learn from you, Sanch.
    Wish you the best in your future endeavor.

  • Sammie @ The Annoyed Thyroid
    24 March 2022 at 5:46 pm

    So happy for you and proud of you too! When I left a job I wasn’t happy in, a good friend told me, “jump and the net will appear.” Making the leap is the hardest part – your future is bright and I can’t wait to see all that you achieve in private practice and with your writing now that you have the time to dedicate. As Obama would say, yes you can!

  • Deborah Cook
    25 March 2022 at 8:44 am

    Oh how exciting. Not just the private practice but the writing as well. I did a creative non-fiction subject (well, two) at Uni recently and really enjoyed both… though it wasn’t really something I knew existed before.

  • SMD
    29 March 2022 at 7:15 am

    Many well wishes to you on this next part of your journey! I’m rooting for you.

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