Gratitude

Weekly Gratitude 2021 26/52

Hello everyone. I come to you from locked down Sydney this Sunday. I’d already started restricting my movements since Sunday – only going to the gym, grabbing a takeaway coffee, and then working from home and staying there. And still, the lockdown hit me hard and I burst into tears. It’s a sense of deja vu to last March all over again. The gym closure broke me and knowing that again, I might not see friends for a couple of weeks or longer, that everything that fills me is gone again {reading in cafes, watching live music, hanging out with my friends}. I was doing well emotionally and after my last psychologist session in mid-June, had scheduled the next one for the end of July. Now I plan on calling them on Monday to see if I can see them sooner. Amidst all this, I am very angry at the federal government and the debacle that is the vaccine roll-out, the media for its sensationalist reporting of the Astra Zeneca issues, the over 60s who are refusing to get vaccinated with the AZ {including the dude that started this mess}, and the 40-60s still hesitant about the vaccine. The reality is, we are never going to eradicate Covid but we’re going to have to learn to live with it as we do with the flu. But the only way to do that is to get vaccinated. I realise this is a gratitude post, and although it’s hard, here are all the things I’m grateful for from 20th June to 26th June 2021:

Starting a writing routine again at 6 a.m. every weekday this week. Some words are better than no words, right?

Lots of cuddles with Jellybean, the gym dog on Tuesday

Virtual writing group mid-week was better than none at all

Long phone conversation with my friend JR mid-week

Lots of cat cuddles during the week; they are so needy and I love them!

Phone chats and virtual drinks with Sam who is back in the same time zone

Lovely colleagues who validate the disappointment of cancellations and the collective grief we are all going through

Week 26

A flat week at work due to impending restrictions and lockdown measures, an impending cancellation of our conference in Adelaide but made better thanks to supportive colleagues and a manager who didn’t expect us to keep functioning as though the world was normal

Very supportive work environment – my manager checked in on me straight after lockdowns were announced for some LGAs on Friday because I’d told her how I didn’t cope well last year

Catching the glorious strawberry-coloured super moon on Friday evening

My parents celebrating 41 years of being married. I don’t know when I’ll see them next given they’re in India

Getting some beach therapy on Saturday and then ordering pizzas for dinner

My PT sending a message soon after the lockdown was announced to say he could do outdoor sessions and offered more sessions if needed; I’ve signed up for two a week for now and hope that along with an adapted program can keep me going until we can get back

Based on lockdown rules, it appears that Gladys Berejiklian {our premier} has actually been kind enough to state you can visit another person “for compassionate reasons, including where two people are in a relationship but do not necessarily live together.” By deliberately not defining the type of relationship, it means I could visit my other single friend who lives alone as well and for that, I am grateful

Again, I’m very aware that my experience is not everyone’s experience. I am aware that people will talk about looking on the bright side of things but the fact is, this sucks. For a developed nation with not that big a population and public health care, we are performing appallingly in our vaccine roll out. And that makes me angry. I am actually fine with how the state government has handled things and I know they didn’t want a lockdown which I agreed with. Because, it does affect mental health significantly for many of us. All I can hope is that it’s not longer than two weeks.

***Linking with Denyse for Life this Week and Natalie for Weekend Coffee Share***

Until next time,

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  • Barbara Lofgren
    27 June 2021 at 3:06 pm

    Thinking of you all over the Tasman. You may have seen that we have gone up to Level 2 lockdown in the Wellington region. The best move but still a bit annoying. The vaccine roll out here is very slow and apparently stocks are low, with no more coming into the country until July. I think because NZ and Australia ‘managed well’ last year, we are bottom of the list for the vaccine. So glad you had lots of things to be grateful for during the week and congratulations to your parents!
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    • Sanch @ Sanch Writes
      27 June 2021 at 3:50 pm

      It sounds similar to us here with low stocks of Pfizer but also scare-mongering around AZ. I think some issues are valid but the fact that AZ is going out in other countries with no issue, it frustrates me that we are still so hesitant. Our federal government though has royally screwed up the whole process. It’s frustrating because both you and us can’t continue to live like this in our little bubbles. Hope you are keeping safe x

    • Laurie Graves
      28 June 2021 at 9:20 am

      Came here by way of Thistles and Kiwis. I live in Maine, half way around the world from you. Just wanted to send best wishes your way. In the United States, we had a terrible year of worry, sickness, and isolation. So my heart goes out to you!

  • Natalie
    27 June 2021 at 11:50 pm

    Thinking of you, Sanch, and hoping your lockdown is short-lived. Keeping up your exercise and gratitude journal routine, cuddling with your pet, and staying in touch with your friends and PT are excellent ways to keep you physically and mentally healthy. Congratulations to your parents! Thank you for linking up with #weekendcoffeeshare
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  • Jennifer Jones
    28 June 2021 at 11:04 am

    I agree with you Sanch, lockdown does suck. Do take care and stay safe. It’s great that you can still write a gratitude post while feeling upset and disappointed
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  • Sammie @ The Annoyed Thyroid
    28 June 2021 at 9:35 pm

    Argh! I can’t believe we’re in lockdown again. I just want to remind you that you can do hard things (even if you don’t want to.) I see a lot more face time wines in our near future. I notice that you have a lovely long list of gratitude there and that you can continue to do all those things in lockdown (because surely Jellybean will be up for some outdoor PT!)

  • Debbie+Harris
    29 June 2021 at 9:36 pm

    Your words are very apt and show how you are feeling Sanch. I’m with you! Happy anniversary to your parents, we celebrated 41 years earlier this year too! Take care
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  • Denyse Whelan
    30 June 2021 at 8:18 pm

    So agree with you and the anger and frustration with how the vaccine rollout is being organised and the mixed messages everywhere. BUT, I was not helping myself staying on twitter for too long so that is helping. You were the first person I thought of re lockdown remembering how tough it was on you last time. I am glad you have a couple of different ways to ease your emotions about it. I am disappointed that we can’t have family visit us and probably that our Soup for Soul event planned for my local cafe in Toukley may not happen. Pretty hard though for many and we have our pension and retirement income and our health is pretty good. Your parents marriage is something to be celebrated! Thank you for sharing your post for #LifeThisWeek at Denyse Whelan Blogs. It’s been great to see you here and thanks so much for your contribution to the community of bloggers who link up from Mondays to Wednesdays (Australian Eastern Time). Next Monday the optional prompt is Taking Stock. And we are past half way for my 2021 Blogging Year! Denyse.
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