The Month That Was

April 2020 Reflections

Oh hello there, month of May! You snuck up on us. Although, to be honest, the days have blurred into one and I cannot tell the difference any more. Before getting stuck into May, which let’s be real, is not going to be very different from the last onebillionandsixtyhundred days, it’s time to look back at the month that was April.

What I wrote in April 2020

This is a laugh because, let’s face it, I haven’t had much brain space for writing at all during this pandemic! I have been writing short snippets of my feelings and experiences, as well as insights from therapy but that’s about it. And you know what? I’m okay with that.

What I read in April 2020

In March, I struggled with reading and concentrating on books. The lockdown measures, the grief, the loss of life as I knew it meant it was a struggle to read and all my energy was being spent adjusting to changes and focussing on work. Thankfully though, in April, with the Easter long weekend, that came back. It’s probably still not at the levels it used to be, but it’s there. I’ve also decided to let off a lot go of the reading challenges I signed up for and just focus on what tickles my fancy at the time. I probably will still complete the Aussie Author Challenge and Australian Women Writers Challenge because I veer towards those books anyway.

In April, I finished four books and was halfway through two others. One I’ve finished just this morning but it will count to May’s haul. My reviews for all of them on Instagram are overdue but I will do them soon. Anyway, in April I read Sensitive by Allayne Webster, Whisper Network by Chandler Baker, Deep Water by Sarah Epstein and Adults by Emma Jane Unsworth. The first three were all 4 stars while the last was 3 stars though it was really quite light and funny.

On the blog in April 2020

Like my writing, my blog has taken a back seat these past couple of months. I am trying to backdate some gratitude posts for April because I continued to keep a regular journal at home but that’s as far as it will go. It might change in May; it might not. Time will tell.

Health in April 2020

Mentally, I reached the stage of acceptance about isolation around the time of the Easter weekend. I made an iso-plan for myself as recommended by my therapist and came to terms with a lot of the changes. No, this hasn’t made me more productive or any such thing. It’s just made me embrace the discomfort when it occurs and notice the good stuff when it’s around. I guess I’ve been much better mentally this month than last month but it’s relative compared to how I was probably back in Feburary. My mental health is on a tightrope anyway but I’m doing what I can to manage it including keeping connections, exercising, practising gratitude and seeing a therapist.

Physically, again, I’m not fantastic but I have started eating better and cooking as home as opposed to only getting takeaway. I am exercising most days at home and going for lots of walks and the occasional run and while it’s not the gym, it’s been okay. It’s better than nothing I suppose. I’ve also been fundraising for Canteen as part of the Move it, Raise it, Quit it challenge and my goal was to get 150000 steps in April and complete 15 pushups a day – I surpassed that dramatically and I plan to continue in May. You’re welcome to donate if so inclined!

Life in April 2020

Haha…life. Ah, life during a pandemic. Life in isolation. Life in lockdown. Here’s my life most days – wake up, exercise, work, walk, eat, read or watch Netflix, chat with friends, sleep and repeat. There have been some lovely solo walks down by the harbour, lovely catch-ups whilst exercising with one other person – including Sammie and Teddy – and some friends who live closer than others. So it’s not all bad. And I was loving exploring my new neighbourhood since December anyway and this has just given me more time for that. I was also fortunate to have some beach days in there – not my typical beach days of lying in the sun and reading – but still being able to go for a swim and soak in the sun briefly.

Highlight of April 2020

Having my personal breakthrough and reaching that stage of acceptance!

Lowlight of April 2020

Umm, the pandemic? Not being able to hug my friends when I do see them? Oh, and having really down moments on the days I was meant to be seeing Karnivool live in concert.

Lessons from April 2020

I guess this is something I’ve known but it was made clearer this month. Nothing is permanent. The feelings I had at the start of lockdown – the anxiety about getting depressed – it gradually settled. The grief at all that’s been cancelled and lost, that comes and goes in waves. Nothing is permanent. And it’s something I remind myself as I miss the hugs of friends, the social gatherings, the ability to sit and read in a cafe or at the beach or in the park. And also, reminding myself to take it one day at a time, one thing at a time.

So yeah, that was a look back at April for me. A strange month but I guess as far as isolating lives are concerned, it could be worse.

How was April for you?

Do share!

***Linking with Vidya for her monthly gratitude circle and Denyse for Life this Week***

Until next time,

 

 

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  • Debbie Harris
    4 May 2020 at 8:54 am

    I hear you on the grief Sanch, it seems to be the overriding emotion for many these days. Good on you for putting your feelings about the month down on paper. Take care, hopefully things will get better soon but I’m not sure what it’s going to look like after the lockdowns are lifted. #lifethisweek
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  • Natalie
    4 May 2020 at 9:27 am

    Sanch, Glad to hear you made very good health progress in April. One day at a time, one thing at a time sounds like a sensible approach to me. Take care and have a great week! #lifethisweek
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    • Bella
      4 May 2020 at 10:23 am

      Good to hear that your mental health is improving and I do hope you can care for yourself in this difficult time. This situation is unprecedented in our lifetime and it’s okay to grieve. But great that you’ve been able to find little things through the day to bring joy and hope.

  • Sydney Shop Girl
    4 May 2020 at 12:00 pm

    Sanch, I can relate to what you are observing regarding writing. It is enough at the moment, any moment to write as little or as much as we please. Take care

    SSG xxx

  • Jody at Six Little Hearts
    4 May 2020 at 12:09 pm

    I just became your 600th like on FB – sorry, I thought I was already following you.
    Great to hear about the books you’ve been reading. I have just purchased ‘Boy Who Swallowed the Universe’ which has been recommended to me.
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  • Sammie @ The Annoyed Thyroid
    4 May 2020 at 3:07 pm

    I’m quite lucky because life hasn’t changed that much for me at least not in terms of work and home. That said, I find the whole pandemic thing quite anxiety inducing and overwhelming so I too am taking one day at a time and trying to control what I can in my own little bubble. Also trying not to worry about things that haven’t happened yet and finding something good in every day. Our catch ups have been a highlight – I know I’m biased but Teddy is a great tonic, isn’t he?!
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  • Leanne | www.crestingthehill.com.au
    4 May 2020 at 4:01 pm

    Hi Sanch – it sounds like your breakthru and acceptance around Easter counterpointed my small meltdown at the same time – no Easter traditions and no family visits really did my head in. I got over it, but with Mothers Day around the corner I’m probably due for another small implosion. These weird weeks keep running together and I’m getting a bit tired of it all TBH – roll on lockdown being over!

  • Joanne Tracey
    5 May 2020 at 7:55 am

    April was definitely weird. I’m a tad antsey and, well, bored. I’m stupidly busy which is how I’m trying to escape my boredom but I’m bored. And I’m walking ridiculous amounts again to try & escape it. Heavy sighs. This too will pass.
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  • Parul Thakur
    5 May 2020 at 9:17 pm

    I hear you. Initially I was also anxious but soon acceptance took over and I am now much better. I keep myself super occupied so I don’t have the mind space to think too much.
    I love that you can go to beach. Feels so good to hear.
    I am reading and picked up blogging too. It has kept me engaged and hopeful. Working out at home has been good. But on food – i need to eat healthy.
    Sanch, I have meaning to talk to you. I hope you are well and you know that I am around. Please take care. This too shall pass.
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  • Soumya
    5 May 2020 at 9:38 pm

    Kudos on the personal breakthrough and self-acceptance. That is always key, let alone during a pandemic!

    Times like these weren’t easy for me too, but with time we’re getting used to the new normal. Especially since there is no other way out! The uncertainty kills though.

    Fingers crossed, this too shall pass. Maybe, like a kidney stone, but pass it shall.
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  • Denyse
    6 May 2020 at 6:53 pm

    Good to read the reality of life as it is. It seems to me, though, as an observer via your SM that you are feeling OK-ish about more than you might have. There are times that are weird for me but life as a retiree was already pretty quiet. I am glad that supermarkets are almost back to normal. I hated those times.

    Thank you so much for being part of Life This Week by linking up and leaving a comment on my post. It is a great way to share the connection on-line. Next week the optional prompt is 19/51 Special Anniversaries 11.5.2020. I look forward to seeing you there too. Stay safe and well. Denyse.
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