The Month That Was

May 2019 Reflections

may 2019 reflections

Winter is well and truly here, my friends! Welcome to the first day of June. It’s cold and not my favourite time of the year especially as my house is a bit of an ice box. I do have lots to look forward to this month but it’s also that time for me to reflect on the month before.

What I wrote in May 2019

I wrote a lot of poetry on an off the blog in May. While I didn’t have much to contribute to my writing group this past month, I submitted poems each week to YeahWrite and most weeks for Wednesday Verses. I fell in love with the poetic form ‘Lune’ that was the theme for YeahWrite’s poetry prompt in May. As the month went on, I learnt how to get better at it and wrote some just for myself. The poems I wrote for YeahWrite included Melancholy, Rainy Day, Frisson, Signs, AusVotes2019, Tainted Love, and Self-loathing. For Wednesday Verses, I managed to submit three poems including Life and death, Unwedded bliss and Emptiness. Finally, I also wrote a piece of microprose for YeahWrite titled Pride.

I was pretty stoked to have Tainted Love chosen as an editor’s pick this month and also have some of my poems chosen in the top 3.

What I read in May 2019 

I only read four books this month and have started the fifth but I’m okay with that. It’s all about balance. I read Brave Enough by Cheryl Strayed, Self-compassion by Kristen Neff, The World was whole by Fiona Wright and Don’t turn around by Amanda Brooke. Self-compassion and The World was whole were probably my favourites as they spoke to me on a deep and personal level. Both are nonfiction and while the former is more appropriate professionally and personally, the latter is a book of personal essays which I will review shortly.

Blogging in May 2019

I blogged a fair bit this month. All the above creative pieces definitely helped but additionally, I also reviewed a couple of books I’d read in the previous months – Yellow and The Hate U Give. I also wrote my usual gratitude posts and a personal essay on my morning coffee ritual. I was pretty happy to wake up this morning to hear this piece was chosen as one of the editor’s picks at YeahWrite.

Health in May 2019

I’m grateful my physical health has been relatively good this month. There have been a couple of instances of allergies with a change in season but generally, I’ve been okay. I got the flu shot which we get for free at work. I’ve also managed to exercise most weeks after falling off the wagon early in the month. I hit some personal bests with my strength training and deadlifted 60 kgs (5 sets of 5 reps), hip thrusters of 65 kgs (4 sets of 10 reps) and squats with 50 kgs (5 sets of 6 reps). I hope to keep increasing it. I’ve also started running again mainly in preparation for the Bay to Bay run I’m participating in this month.

Emotionally, I’m just taking it one day at a time. Most days are good but I think sometimes, it’s because I keep busy with work or social life. I am trying to incorporate some of the self-compassion material I’ve read into my own life. The start of the month was especially difficult mentally but I regrouped myself and persevered. Like I said, taking it one day at a time.

Life in May 2019

Life this past month has been hectic but fulfilling. It started with some news I’d be hoping to hear and for that I was extremely grateful as it meant a weight off my shoulders. It was a month filled with fantastic music, live gigs, lots of writing, busy days at work {with some emotional rollercoasters}, good food, camping, days out with friends, and the occasional downtime. I saw four live gigs this month including Dean Lewis, Amy Shark and Karnivool {twice!!!}. I visited bookstores, new places and my favourite place to eat, watched a fair bit of Netflix, read, wrote, listened to a lot of music and spoke to friends to keep me going this month. I also continued to plan for upcoming holidays including booking tickets for a spontaneous trip to Melbourne in June, booking my accommodation for Brisbane in July and paying part of the payment for a big trip in three months’ time.

Lowlight of May 2019

The sadness and self-loathing that took over at the start of the month was probably the lowlight for me. But given that it occurred so early on, I’m not as hooked on to it currently. Oh and I guess, the election results would be another.

Highlight of May 2019

It’s tough to choose just one this month – there are three highlights and I’m going with them: being chosen for YeahWrite’s editor’s picks twice this month {one poetry and one nonfiction} and seeing Karnivool two days in a row after almost three years.

Lessons from May 2019

Bad times pass. Feelings are transient. Self-compassion is important. In the end, connecting with others but also being kind to oneself is the way through bad times. Self-loathing, on the other hand, makes you spiral further and feeds the bad times.

I am trying to be kinder to myself. I am trying to understand myself better. At the same time, I keep planning things to look forward to in a bid to be optimistic. And I’m also trying to help others through my work and writing with the hope that I’m doing my bit in this world we live in. I am looking forward to June despite the cold it brings. It is another busy month {although I am yet to organise a gig to watch}.

How was May for you? 

Do share!

***Linking with Vidya for Gratitude Circle***

Until next time,

Featured image by Irina Iriser from Pexels

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  • Joanne Tracey
    2 June 2019 at 8:29 am

    I’m just about to sit down and write my May post. Yours sounds like a good balance overall. I find that I’m slipping into the slippery slope we call anxiety and self-loathing so am making a concerted effort this month to pull myself out of it. This month for me will be about true self-care. Have a great June.

  • Modern Gypsy
    3 June 2019 at 12:25 am

    Sounds like a full May, with more highs than lows. Congratulations on being the featured writer – I really love your poetry. The way you capture a whole gamut of feelings in a few verses is beautiful. Here’s hoping June is even better!
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  • Roshan Radhakrishnan
    3 June 2019 at 12:28 am

    May has had its ups and downs for me… no significant thing to speak of, I fear which sometimes is a good thing. still seeking a pure spark in my life, I guess. Touchwood, will do more to find it in June.
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  • Rachna Parmar
    4 June 2019 at 3:13 pm

    A month of ups and downs for you with ample lessons and things to take solace in. Congrats on your YeahWrite picks. That must have felt so good.
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  • Simon Falk
    4 June 2019 at 9:03 pm

    Some great stuff, there Sanch. Good for you in persevering with the ‘lune’ poems. They are well done too! I struggle with such mathematical forms myself and find that I let the mood and content set the pace and metre.
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  • Soumya
    4 June 2019 at 10:54 pm

    That is the thing about bad times, it does pass. Like they say, it might pass like a kidney stone, but it shall pass.

    Please don’t get into self-loathing, Sanch. That’s a terrible place to be in and very difficult to come out of. I hope June makes you feel better in more ways than one.

    If you ever want to talk, you have my number.

    Love!
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  • Parul Thakur
    12 June 2019 at 1:01 am

    I love reading your gratitude lists. They feel honest and positive. Almost like as if you are sharing and telling your self. I am super happy about YeahWrite picks and votes for you. It’s big in my mind and you deserve these. Great job!
    Btw – you do some really good weights. Keep going. I do functional training but I don’t do deadlifts and hip thrusters. I worry about my back so watch out for it.
    Taking one day at a time is right and don’t get to self loathing. Never helps and to me it becomes a vicious circle. Wishing you a happier June and loads of love!
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  • Shalzmojo
    14 June 2019 at 1:20 pm

    I love the winters and since I am reeling under the May heat, my heart is filled with envy at your mention of winters – how I wish I could be in that weather too 😉

    Sounds like you had a pretty balanced and fulfilling May – so much writing you have gotten done Sanch. Thats really awesome progress.

    Wishing you tonnes of joys in June and may the happiness continue xoxo
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