The Month That Was

April 2019 Reflections

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Welcome to the 1st of May! The chill is well and truly in the air; the evenings are darker and miserable as fuck. But it’s  a brand new month and one I’m actually looking forward to for most part. But before all that, let’s recap how April has been.

What I wrote in April 2019

I managed to write creatively a fair bit this month. Maybe not necessarily on the blog but definitely on the side. I came up with a new project and got some constructive feedback from my writing group about it. Now just to keep honing it and figuring out what I can actually do with it. I have also been writing a bit of poetry on the side – I am feeling a lot at the moment – especially one particular feeling – and it’s helping me through it. Or something like that.

Creatively on the blog, I did write a short piece of microfiction this month. The initial goal was to submit it for Yeah Write’s challenge but then I realised a bit too late that I hadn’t read the rules properly! So there was no way I could submit it. It was a good reminder to read the rules over and over!

What I read in April 2019

I read a fair bit in April. Having public holidays helped because it basically meant time at the beach reading. Plus, reading helps me either validate my emotions or escape into another world – both of which were much needed! In April, I finished 7 books taking my overall tally for the year to 27 {not that it’s a competition!}. I read Staring at the Sun: Overcoming the terror of death by Irvin Yalom. This was recommended to me by my supervisor last year and I really enjoyed this professionally and personally. I also read My Salary by Sally Rooney (a novella), Yellow by Megan Jacobsen {review to come soon}, Friday Black by Nana Kwame Adjei-Brenyah (spec fiction short stories), The Seven deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle by Stuart Turton, Lullaby by Leila Slimani and The Shepherd’s Hut by Tim Winton {review to come soon}.

Blogging in April 2019

I blogged a bit this April which I’m quite pleased about. There were a couple of book reviews of books I’d read in March – Normal People by Sally Rooney and What I like about me by Jenna Guillaume. But more importantly, I wrote some personal posts. I talked about self-care strategies I use and how I feel deeply about things. That was closely linked to a post I wrote on humanity after the Sri Lankan bombings. And of course, I continued to write my weekly gratitude posts which remind me my life is not as shitty as my mind likes to think it is!

Health in April 2019

My physical health continued to be a bit of a roller coaster in April. I had several tests done but no specific outcome. Things have subsided so I’m okay for now. Just before the long weekend, I also got hit with a head cold and that took a bit out of me. With the cooler weather, I’m sure it’s not the last time I’ve seen it! On the plus side, I continued to train through most of this – barely any cardio but still strength training and some yoga. My strength has definitely increased thanks to the training program I was following the last 12 weeks. I have ceased that and personal training for now given I’m trying to save some money for holidays in a few months but it was a good run!

My mental health – the less said about it the better. I think I’m just trying to take each day as it comes. I have okay days and shit days. I think I’ve sort of realised my neutral state is a ‘meh’ state.

Life in April 2019

Life has been interesting this month. I worked – private and public, socialised a lot in Sydney and here up on the coast, saw Jenna Guillaume at an author event, spent lots of hours at the beach, hiked a bit, Netflixed without the chill, mourned the loss of daylight savings for another six months, and ended the month with an amazing concert. I’m still reeling from listening to We lost the sea and continue to experience goosebumps and intermittent tears as their album plays on repeat.

Lowlight of April 2019

My mental health is probably the lowlight this month – combined with a sense of feeling lost and floundering it’s not been all that crash hot! All I want to do is curl up in a ball and not interact with the world in any way.

Highlight of April 2019

Watching We Lost the Sea live in concert. I had higher expectations for the main act, Russian Circles, but ended up being blown away by these guys instead. I have never cried at a gig; and while I have teared up at songs with lyrics, it has never happened with music alone. That emotional pain and loss hit me deep and spoke to me at a level I cannot even begin to describe.

Lessons from April 2019

Just take it one step at a time, one day at a time; somehow you will continue to survive. Sort of.

So anyway, that’s been my month. The good with the bad like for most people I’m sure. To be fair, I think there was more good but my current frame of mind is struggling. I am looking forward to May – I go camping this month, have four gigs to attend and am trying to fit in other social activities in between. I just need to figure my life out though!

How was April for you?

Do share!

Featured image by Stitch Dias from Pexels

***Linking with Vidya for her Gratitude Circle and Deb, Min, Leanne and Jo for the Lovin’ Life Linky***

Until next time,

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  • Sammie @ The Annoyed Thyroid
    2 May 2019 at 7:05 am

    Hope you find your yay in May and that you feel healthy and happy. Personally, I would take reading 7 books in a month as a very big win! I was also sick in April but on the plus side I got to eat a lot of chicken soup and watch a lot of Netflix with the chill (but not the Netflix kind!)

  • Lydia C. Lee
    2 May 2019 at 8:13 am

    Which gigs? We’ve a few but I’m currently trying to duck out to the Comedy Festival for the cheapie sets whenever I can….I have found often these days the supports are better than the main acts…so now I see people on a whim, if they aren’t too $$.

  • Min @ Write of the Middle
    2 May 2019 at 8:34 am

    I enjoyed reading your April Reflections Sanch! You’ve done well to read 7 books in a month. I guess I used to when I had loads of commuting in my days. I just can’t read like I used to these days. April seems to have gone by in a flash and now here we are in May. It’s wonderful to hear you have a holiday coming up. It’s always nice to have something to look forward to! #TeamLovinLife

  • Sydney Shop Girl
    2 May 2019 at 8:57 am

    Lovely wrap up, Sanch! So much going on. I agree – one step at a time in all things.

    SSG xxx

  • Deborah
    2 May 2019 at 9:51 am

    I’m sorry that you’re struggling mental-health wise and completely understand that we often feel ourselves in a hole we’re unable to dig ourselves out of at times. Though – you know better than anyone – it does happen eventually.

    I particularly love that you’re keeping really active (hikes and exercise) and getting out and doing stuff as that’s not something I do particularly well.

    I’m blaming hormones for part of my up and downness. I mean, I know I still have anxiety and depression but my moods turn quickly these days and I’m very definitely in the midst of menopause.

    I saw you share some writing on FB this morning that I want to go and read so will follow that up next.

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  • Leanne |
    2 May 2019 at 11:09 am

    Such a shame that your mental health (and the moods that go with it) hasn’t been fabulous through April Sanch. I hope you get a handle on it soon so you can live life loud. It seems that despite this you still managed to achieve a lot and have a lot of fun – so you must be doing something right!

  • Natasha
    2 May 2019 at 3:08 pm

    Dear Sanch,

    Sending loads of positive, happy vibes that uplift the pall of gloom and turn things around completely in your favour.
    Meanwhile continue to take each moment as it comes. Working on some ‘letting go” strategies may help big time, as will some meditation if that makes sense.

    27 books, done! Well that is no mean feat! I miss those years of yore when I devoured books as though there was no tomorrow. Things have changed and I read at a much slower pace, juggling sometimes between 2-3 book.

    I’m glad the gig was a bit of a game changer.
    I wish you a magical May of transformations and new beginnings.
    Much love.
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  • Denyse
    2 May 2019 at 7:17 pm

    So hard when life would be better with more ups than downs but hey, you sure do not let this stop you. Good on you for telling us about it and for taking life…when it needs to be ….one step at a time.

    Have fun camping. Not my scene at all but love that you love it.

    Denyse x
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  • Vinitha
    7 May 2019 at 3:10 pm

    Take care of your health, Sanch. I am going through a not so good time with my physical health here. So my results came back as anemic which explains my constant fatigue and dizziness. I am taking supplements now, but still experiencing dizziness and tiredness every now and then. Will have to wait and see.
    You are quite a reader, Sanch. I read around 6 books in 2019 so far. Started listening to audio books and loving it.
    I like your lesson from April. Makes sense. You will survive it definitely. Just take one step at a time.
    Wishing a peaceful month ahead.
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  • Vidya Sury
    23 May 2019 at 10:08 pm

    It is lovely to focus on the things we’re grateful for, Sanch. I can imagine the high of attending a concert. It just takes your breath away. Great to hear about your writing and blogging. Please do take care of your health! One day at a time is great advice! Thank you for being part of the Gratitude Circle. ?
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