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Book Review: The Last time we say Goodbye by Cynthia Hand

Sixteen-year-old Ty has killed himself. His older sister Alexis Riggs, almost 18, is trying to come to terms with this. Before Ty died, Lexie was happy. She had a boyfriend. She was doing well at school. She had a family that was almost whole {despite her dad leaving them a few years ago and starting one of his own}. And she had friends who didn’t look at her like she would break. Now though, she is the girl whose brother killed himself. But worst of all, for Lexie, is the secret she holds from the night Ty died. One that could have possibly changed the way things ended.

There is no perfect way to describe how immensely powerful and poignant this book is. It is layered with grief and sadness, and yet, with hope and love. It makes you question how well you really know someone. It makes you question whether or not you can truly ‘save’ someone. It makes you wonder whether it is the last time you might interact with someone. It takes you to the depths of grief and also to the depths of what it’s like to be depressed. While I haven’t personally experienced grief of this kind, Hand was able to make me feel it all. I wanted to fix it – for Lexie, for her mum. But I have experienced depression. And I really, really, really wanted to fix it for Ty.

This book broke me like no other. I read a lot of heavy books and work with a lot of heavy stuff. I am used to this. I manage it. But somehow, this book broke me. I had to put it down and sob uncontrollably knowing I couldn’t help Ty. I sobbed because heart hurt. Because even though what’s happened Lexie hasn’t happened to me, I could empathise. And I could definitely empathise with Ty. It’s a tough book to read. But so, so, so worth it.

I said it on my Instagram review – read it with tissues. And I stand by it.

It’s a beautiful book. And even though it broke me, it will stay with me for a long, long time.

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Until next time,

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  • Obsessivemom
    19 February 2019 at 8:51 pm

    I usually stay away from sad books because they affect me in a way that I don’t quite like. However I agree with you when you say they really are worth it and they do stay with you for a long time. This one seems like it would be worth read.
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  • Anshu Bhojnagarwala
    19 February 2019 at 9:26 pm

    I understand sanch, there are certain books that get to you and you wonder how is it that you are feeling so heavy when the protagonist is going through those emotions. It must be a good book to make you feel that way.

  • Vinitha
    20 February 2019 at 7:50 am

    Sounds like a great book. Some books can touch us so much and evoke deep feelings. I will see if I can find this book in our local library.
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  • Priya
    20 February 2019 at 2:39 pm

    Reading such books can be cathartic sometimes. Sounds like a good book, Sanch.

  • Rajlakshmi
    20 February 2019 at 5:17 pm

    Woa this sounds like a really heavy book. I can barely handle emotions in a book, it’s hard to get rid of the imagery or the words. I can understand how you must have felt.
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