The Month That Was

October 2018 Reflections

Just like that, we welcome a brand new month. It’s November, people! How did we even get here? I know we all say this and think this every year, but honestly, time frickin’ flies! The start of a new month though, is a great time to reflect on the month gone by. And in this case, that’s October 2018.

What I wrote in October 2018

I feel like I cannot call myself a writer based on September and October. It’s a complete lie!! I haven’t been able to write anything for my WIP since early September. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve tried. I’ve sat in front of the computer, tried to type out the words and just nothing. Sure, there’s a lot going on in life which I shall talk about in a bit but it’s still not really an excuse. I wrote just one poem on the blog but no other creative work. You’d think, given that was the case, I’d be madly prepping for NaNoWriMo this month but nope. Unfortunately, because I know I’m going away for half the month, I haven’t signed up for NaNo. But I am hoping the creative juices begin to flow once I’m on holidays.

What I read in October 2018

I read a fair bit in October and I’m pleased about that. I finished The Dark Lake by Sarah Bailey, the amazing Boy Swallows Universe by Trent Dalton, The Sea Prayer by Khaled Hosseini and Liane Moriarty’s latest one, Nine Perfect Strangers {review to come shortly}. I’m currently reading Girl in Pieces by Kathleen Glasgow and thoroughly enjoying it. I’m hoping that with a holiday in November, I will be able to read more books.

On the blog in October 2018

I didn’t blog all that much in October. There were the book reviews, my weekly gratitude posts {these keep me sane!}, a poem from death, and a post for World Mental Health Day. It’s not that I don’t want to blog but it’s been an overwhelming month where there’s so much going on that my brain just feels full.

Health in October 2018

My physical health in October was pretty good. For that, I am truly grateful. I managed to exercise about 23 times this month. I fell off the wagon for a week after we changed the clocks for daylight savings – the dark mornings made it hard to wake up. But then, I got back on regardless of how little sleep I’d had and I’m glad I did.

My mental health on the other hand, has been very fragile this month. My overthinking brain has contemplated everything – life, death, meaning, purpose, the point of everything. My sleep has been shocking – some nights I struggle to fall asleep, other nights I’ve woken up in the middle of the night and then can’t stop thinking. This overthinking has exploded into affecting my mood and I’ve had days when it’s felt like the darkness will never go away. But I persist. I push on. I continue to try and find meaning and set small goals. I continue to exercise. To connect. I have had some amazing friends during this time and I’m so grateful for the empathy, the support, the love and the practical advice.

Life in October 2018

Life has been interesting this past month. I have done a lot of fun things – saw Birds of Tokyo and Sleepmakeswaves live in concert, caught up with friends in Sydney and on the coast, had a girl’s night, went to Light the city in Sydney, and met the lovely blogger, Denyse. I also officially handed in my resignation at work because I got a new job in a slightly senior role on the coast. Although Sydney is calling me back {well, the shire specifically}, it was stupid not to try out for this role. It has meant that October has been a bit crazy trying to wrap things up at both my jobs while also briefly doing a secondment in an adult inpatient setting. I don’t do things in halves. My last day at work is the day before I head off to India and I start my new role when I get back. October also marked two years since I moved up to the coast. In between all this, I have been precariously balancing my mental health.

Highlight of October 2018

The highlight of this month has to be the two gigs I went to. Sleepmakeswaves are an amazing band and I think I’m slightly obsessed with them. As for Birds of Tokyo, given my long-time obsession with Kenny, it was fantastic to see him up close again. There is something about live music that transports you to this magical place. A place where you are in the here and now. Where nothing can affect you. Nothing, but the music.

Lowlight of October 2018

My mental health for sure. I think I am depressed but unlike before, I am more aware of it and taking measures to prevent it from getting to a really bad state.

Lessons from October 2018

Mental health problems are a bitch! And yet, you can put on your face and the world thinks you’ve got your shit together while you are slowly breaking on the inside. Having said that, reaching out is one of the best things to do. And I have people in my life who have been fantastic and supportive. I have also learned that life is short and maybe, just maybe we need to take those risks. Make small goals. Do things that give us a sense of purpose and meaning. Because once we die, all the little things we stress about will no longer matter.

November is a brand new month and I’m hoping it brings better things especially in terms of my mental health. I’m looking forward to eating Indian food, seeing my sister and parents, and of course, catching up with a whole bunch of bloggers.

How was your October?

Do share!

***Linking with Vidya for her Gratitude Circle and Deb, Min, Jo and Leanne for the Lovin’ Life Linky***

Featured image: Pexels

Until next time,

 

 

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  • Min @ Write of the Middle
    1 November 2018 at 10:59 am

    Sanch, I can relate to the overthinking and mental health concerns. I’ve had a month of anxiety and overthinking (because of being a finalist in the Bupa Blog Awards) and depression is always a lingering thing that can get me if I’m not careful. Be kind to yourself and remember there are always people who understand and care. I’m one of them! I understand and I care and I am always here if you want someone to talk to. I know you only know me a little bit *virutally* but sometimes it’s those people that are a little bit disconnected from your life that are the best to chat to. Meanwhile, cheer to fabulous November full of fun experiences! 🙂 #TeamLovinLife

  • Sydney Shop Girl
    1 November 2018 at 11:25 am

    My October was busy with mostly good things. I went away, did fun things over the school holidays with my son and kept at my fitness. But I do need the break and chance to slow down that the end of year will bring.

    SSG xxx

  • Leanne | www.crestingthehill.com.au
    1 November 2018 at 12:57 pm

    Well it sounds like you had a pretty great month all in all – the only real downer being your slide backwards with your sleeping etc. I really hope you get a handle on it soon, if not, please go and see a doctor or counsellor – the further you allow yourself to go down, the harder it is to get back up again (living with a depressed person gives me a lot of insight into the battle you guys face daily). I’m so glad you have a support network, but please don’t leave it too long if you’re not improving – and be extra kind to yourself xxx
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  • Vidya Sury
    1 November 2018 at 9:52 pm

    Hugs, Sanchie! What an eventful month-I love how you’ve taken stock and the learning from what you’ve experienced. Take care of your health. Wonderful to have a supportive friends circle, that helps more than anything else.

    Congratulations on your new job. Glad there were enjoyable moments and also very glad about your holiday, considering that soon, we’ll probably be enjoying coffee together.

    Thank you for linking up ❤
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  • Joanne Tracey
    2 November 2018 at 7:07 am

    Yep overwhelm and anxiety wrapped around me more than it should have in October too. Sending hugs to you and hopes that your holiday both rejuvenates your creativity and calms your brain.

  • Deborah
    2 November 2018 at 9:22 am

    I can relate to the overthinking and understand how exhausting it can be… not just in the prevention of sleep but in keeping one’s brain so busy there’s no space for the creative stuff. Or the fun stuff.

    I hope you’re able to quieten it and it sounds like you’ve got coping mechanisms in place. I have to admit the biggest game changer for me was that my doctor gave me sleeping tablets a few years ago and they’re the BEST THING. I worried initially about taking something like that, but I’ve always had trouble sleeping and taking a couple of hours to get to sleep was a ‘good’ night. Now it’s like 30mins, sometimes 60mins max and so much better. (And I wake feeling better and less exhausted each morning!)

    The new job sounds great and I’m sure you’ll enjoy the holiday – it’s nice to have stuff to look forward to!
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  • Shalzmojo
    2 November 2018 at 2:34 pm

    HUgs and love Sanchie; this too shall pass dear! I am proud of you for being so brave to put it all up and accept it. Life gives us all these highs and lows to test us out – you are flying with shining colours; have no doubt about it.

    Yay for the new job and the holiday coming up – I am excited about the latter too!! Dont want to jinx it!

    Love that you have been reading so much- shall check out these reviews. And I wish we had such awesome live gigs out here – or rather we do but they are managed so badly that I hate going to them!

    Hugs for an awesome November and wish you a very Happy Diwali – new beginnings & holidays!!!!
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  • Parul Thakur
    2 November 2018 at 3:51 pm

    I am so looking forward to meeting you soon. Congrats on the job! I can’t believe it’s been 2 years since you moved here. I will look up the books you listed. I also read a few in October but the TBR list has a lot of room to grow.
    I love how beautifully you organize your month and share with us.
    Take care of yourself and always a relief to know you have some folks around who you can speak to. It’s important that we have people who can listen and do that with love and patience. Hugs and have an amazing time with family. See you soon 🙂
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  • Shantala
    9 November 2018 at 7:18 am

    Hugs, Sanchie. I am so sorry you are going through a terrible phase, but I have to say that I find you incredibly brave, when it comes to facing your demons, and slaying them. And I am glad you have a support system in place, to turn to when things get bad.

    Congratulations on the new job! I hope November will be a much better month for you! Sending loads of virtual hugs and positive vibes your way.
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  • Lakshmi Manoj Kumar
    10 November 2018 at 3:13 pm

    Congrats on the new Job, Sanch! Remember, this too shall pass. I see it that way, that is is a phase and things will change. Overthinking is always a silent trouble to us. But good to know you have people whom you can connect to. Music is always soothing, isn’t it?
    Take care of yourself and November will be a great month for you.
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