My heart aches as I realise sometimes, things just aren’t meant to be.
Me being in a relationship that lasts, is apparently one of those things.
Two years and nine months later, I’m single again.
In hindsight, the signs were there for a while. There is no blame game here. Just sadness at what could have been and what probably never will. Sorrow at what has happened. Grief over all that has been lost. Fear about what the future holds.
Maybe this is my life. To be single. To fend for myself.
So for now, I’ll hurt. I’ll nurse my broken heart. I’ll cry until the tears dry up. I’ll withdraw into my shell where it’s safe and comfortable. I’ll busy myself with work.
I realise I will eventually live life again.
Right now though, it seems impossible and almost pointless.
Right now, all seems lost.
For a while, let me wallow.
Until next time,
Ishieta
27 May 2017 at 6:04 amPoignant. I know what you are talking about. But i hope this isn’t it, there is a rainbow beyond this darkness.
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
27 May 2017 at 6:14 amThanks Ishieta. It sucks when it feels that way. I’ve broken up before and managed to get my life back. But somehow this time seems harder
Ishieta
27 May 2017 at 6:04 amPoignant. I know what you are talking about. But i hope this isn’t it, there is a rainbow beyond this darkness.
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
27 May 2017 at 6:14 amThanks Ishieta. It sucks when it feels that way. I’ve broken up before and managed to get my life back. But somehow this time seems harder
Vanessa
27 May 2017 at 7:05 amI’m sorry to hear this. I actually had the strongest urge about a month ago that I should ask you how your relationship was going & I didn’t.
I hope your wallowing helps you through it xox
Sanch Writes
27 May 2017 at 7:56 amThanks Vanessa…I think when we live such public lives these days, people are bound to wonder when there isn’t much mention of the same. Let’s just say it’s been coming for a while and in spite of that knowledge, it is not easy to cope with
Vanessa
27 May 2017 at 7:05 amI’m sorry to hear this. I actually had the strongest urge about a month ago that I should ask you how your relationship was going & I didn’t.
I hope your wallowing helps you through it xox
Sanch Writes
27 May 2017 at 7:56 amThanks Vanessa…I think when we live such public lives these days, people are bound to wonder when there isn’t much mention of the same. Let’s just say it’s been coming for a while and in spite of that knowledge, it is not easy to cope with
Obsessivemom
27 May 2017 at 1:03 pmReally sorry to hear this Sanch. I can only try to imagine what you are going through. Here’s hoping you’ll look beyond it and feel better soon. I am sure life has better things in store for you. Hugs.
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Obsessivemom
27 May 2017 at 1:03 pmReally sorry to hear this Sanch. I can only try to imagine what you are going through. Here’s hoping you’ll look beyond it and feel better soon. I am sure life has better things in store for you. Hugs.
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Rachna Parmar
27 May 2017 at 1:30 pmI am so sorry that you are going through this, Sanch. When a precious relationship breaks, all seems lost but it never is. You will smile again and will have someone special again in your life. Hugs. Heal, my friend.
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Rachna Parmar
27 May 2017 at 1:30 pmI am so sorry that you are going through this, Sanch. When a precious relationship breaks, all seems lost but it never is. You will smile again and will have someone special again in your life. Hugs. Heal, my friend.
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Shailaja Vishwanath
27 May 2017 at 1:54 pmHugs and lots of love, Sanch. It isn’t easy to let go of a loved one. I hope this phase works itself out for you and you are back on track in good time. Keep writing, even if it isn’t on the blog.
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:58 pmThanks for the kind words Shy xx
Shailaja Vishwanath
27 May 2017 at 1:54 pmHugs and lots of love, Sanch. It isn’t easy to let go of a loved one. I hope this phase works itself out for you and you are back on track in good time. Keep writing, even if it isn’t on the blog.
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:58 pmThanks for the kind words Shy xx
Parul Thakur
27 May 2017 at 7:50 pmHugs and lots of love. It’s not easy now but I know you will pick up the pieces and walk again with the same zeal. keep talking and know that your blogging community loves you and cares for you.
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:57 pmThank you heaps! Xx
Parul Thakur
27 May 2017 at 7:50 pmHugs and lots of love. It’s not easy now but I know you will pick up the pieces and walk again with the same zeal. keep talking and know that your blogging community loves you and cares for you.
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:57 pmThank you heaps! Xx
Natasha
28 May 2017 at 2:59 amDear Sanch,
Big hugs and big love going out your way. This too shall pass. Sometimes people fall out of our lives for a good reason. To make way for much much better things. So they it may seem dark gloomy rainy and cloudy your rainbow with the pot of gold is just around the corner.
http://natashamusing.com/2017/05/thursdaytreelove-pristine-gracious/
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:57 pmThanks Nat for the lovely words
Natasha
28 May 2017 at 2:59 amDear Sanch,
Big hugs and big love going out your way. This too shall pass. Sometimes people fall out of our lives for a good reason. To make way for much much better things. So they it may seem dark gloomy rainy and cloudy your rainbow with the pot of gold is just around the corner.
http://natashamusing.com/2017/05/thursdaytreelove-pristine-gracious/
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:57 pmThanks Nat for the lovely words
Kinmin
28 May 2017 at 5:25 amI’m so sorry to hear this Sanch, I know how hard it is to deal with heartbreak.. I hope that you’re able to find little things that help you get through the pain.. Take care of yourself and give yourself time and space to grieve.. *Hugs*
Kinmin
28 May 2017 at 5:25 amI’m so sorry to hear this Sanch, I know how hard it is to deal with heartbreak.. I hope that you’re able to find little things that help you get through the pain.. Take care of yourself and give yourself time and space to grieve.. *Hugs*
Kinmin
28 May 2017 at 5:36 amI’m so sorry to hear this Sanch, I know how hard it is to deal with heartbreak.. I hope that you’re able to find little things that help you get through the pain.. Take care of yourself and give yourself time and space to grieve.. *Hugs*
Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:57 pmThanks Kinmin, taking it one day at a time
Kinmin
28 May 2017 at 5:36 amI’m so sorry to hear this Sanch, I know how hard it is to deal with heartbreak.. I hope that you’re able to find little things that help you get through the pain.. Take care of yourself and give yourself time and space to grieve.. *Hugs*
Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:57 pmThanks Kinmin, taking it one day at a time
Ashleigh My Meow
28 May 2017 at 12:23 pmOh Sanch. I am sorry to hear this. I remember us having some conversations about it and maybe you knew deep down that it wasn’t 100 per cent right. Your Mr Perfect is out there somewhere..
Or like they say it’s better to be in a better relationship with yourself than one with someone else where you feel alone. Definately let’s do a hiking day when I’m back!
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:56 pm🙁 Yeah I think we both need space to work on our individual shit. Look forward to hiking when you’re back!
Ashleigh My Meow
28 May 2017 at 12:23 pmOh Sanch. I am sorry to hear this. I remember us having some conversations about it and maybe you knew deep down that it wasn’t 100 per cent right. Your Mr Perfect is out there somewhere..
Or like they say it’s better to be in a better relationship with yourself than one with someone else where you feel alone. Definately let’s do a hiking day when I’m back!
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:56 pm🙁 Yeah I think we both need space to work on our individual shit. Look forward to hiking when you’re back!
Kaddu
29 May 2017 at 1:31 amBreakups are painful, because it isn’t just a relationship that gets broken, but a dream. A beautiful dream that we weave together with that person.
And for a long time afterward, we’re simply unable to create any more dreams. Maybe we’re too scared. Maybe we don’t feel deserving of those dreams.
But if we don’t have any dreams, what else is left in life? What is there to look forward to? To get out of bed every morning for?
That is probably why it is so difficult for most of us to let go of unhealthy relationships. The fear of being without any dream.
Don’t encourage those self doubts, Sanchie. You took this step because it felt right when you did. Life is resilient. When the time is right, it gives us another dream. Could even be a bigger dream.
Just hang in. Talk about it if you feel like. Or take shelter in your private shell.
Loads of hugs!
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:55 pmThanks so much for your kind words. I think I’m grieving the loss of the moments that could have been and am afraid of what the future holds. Taking it one day at a time.
Kaddu
29 May 2017 at 1:31 amBreakups are painful, because it isn’t just a relationship that gets broken, but a dream. A beautiful dream that we weave together with that person.
And for a long time afterward, we’re simply unable to create any more dreams. Maybe we’re too scared. Maybe we don’t feel deserving of those dreams.
But if we don’t have any dreams, what else is left in life? What is there to look forward to? To get out of bed every morning for?
That is probably why it is so difficult for most of us to let go of unhealthy relationships. The fear of being without any dream.
Don’t encourage those self doubts, Sanchie. You took this step because it felt right when you did. Life is resilient. When the time is right, it gives us another dream. Could even be a bigger dream.
Just hang in. Talk about it if you feel like. Or take shelter in your private shell.
Loads of hugs!
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Sanchie @ Living my Imperfect Life
1 June 2017 at 7:55 pmThanks so much for your kind words. I think I’m grieving the loss of the moments that could have been and am afraid of what the future holds. Taking it one day at a time.