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Unspoken

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There is so much I want to say but the words remain unspoken. With every moment that passes by, my tongue gets frozen. I soak up the courage to tell you the words but all that ensues is chatter. The fear of rejection is currently stronger than any courage I can possibly summon. The words that come out are of daily chit chat. Of moments we have shared and enjoyed. Of times at work and future dreams, they make our conversations light.

But the unspoken words — I hope you hear them. They are in my laugh. Or the light in my eyes. They are in my smile when together we spend time. They are in my actions and the messages I send. But unfortunately, even though I want to stop dropping subtle hints, I lack the courage to be direct. I need to try. Need to persist. There is nothing to lose I tell myself. Except a great friendship. And that is why, along with the fear of being rejected, the words continue to remain unspoken.

While to you I do not say the words, almost everyone close to me knows what I want to say. They want me to be direct. To say something. To make a move. It’s actually quite funny how I can say the words to others around but when it comes to the one person who needs to know, I remain tongue tied. What if you don’t feel the same? What if you then drift away? What if…?

All I can think of now is that the time apart might give me courage. That this time with myself will help me clear my head. That somewhere, some how I will find that elusive courage. To say it out loud. To be direct. To take that risk. And to dive right in.

I talk about living a life with no regrets.

And I know I will regret it if these words remain unspoken.

***Linking up with Write Tribe for the Wednesday Prompt***

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Until next time,

Cheers!!!

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  • Stephanie Bird
    16 May 2014 at 1:12 am

    What a great post! I too struggle at times with finding just the right words and have blogged about it as well. I hope your away and alone time proves productive on your journey.
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    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 6:06 am

      It’s weird how difficult it can be to say something! Especially when writing about it comes easily… 🙂 Thanks for the lovely comment…

  • Stephanie Bird
    16 May 2014 at 1:12 am

    What a great post! I too struggle at times with finding just the right words and have blogged about it as well. I hope your away and alone time proves productive on your journey.
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    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 6:06 am

      It’s weird how difficult it can be to say something! Especially when writing about it comes easily… 🙂 Thanks for the lovely comment…

  • Archana
    16 May 2014 at 2:27 am

    yeah.. some choices are very hard… hope you come out of the situation without any regrets…in either case.. 🙂
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    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 6:07 am

      Thanks Archana…decisions, decisions!!

  • Archana
    16 May 2014 at 2:27 am

    yeah.. some choices are very hard… hope you come out of the situation without any regrets…in either case.. 🙂
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    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 6:07 am

      Thanks Archana…decisions, decisions!!

  • Viji Venu
    16 May 2014 at 3:12 am

    That is quite a wonderful post. Summing up the courage to let go the unspoken is quite a deal. It is sealed and kept hidden in most of the cases. I hope you gather the courage and speak up some day. The feelings definitely deserve light and love!… 🙂
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    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 6:08 am

      Thanks Viji….that’s a lovely comment! I hope to have the courage too… 🙂

  • Viji Venu
    16 May 2014 at 3:12 am

    That is quite a wonderful post. Summing up the courage to let go the unspoken is quite a deal. It is sealed and kept hidden in most of the cases. I hope you gather the courage and speak up some day. The feelings definitely deserve light and love!… 🙂
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    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 6:08 am

      Thanks Viji….that’s a lovely comment! I hope to have the courage too… 🙂

  • sahiti
    16 May 2014 at 6:11 am

    Straight from the heart! lovely post..

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    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 6:13 am

      Welcome here Sahiti and thank you! 🙂

  • sahiti
    16 May 2014 at 6:11 am

    Straight from the heart! lovely post..

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    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 6:13 am

      Welcome here Sahiti and thank you! 🙂

  • Vinodini Iyer
    16 May 2014 at 12:25 pm

    This predicament seems familiar…the best of us get tongue tied in situations where we need to speak up.
    Interesting read 🙂

    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 11:43 pm

      It’s funny that the words flow when we write though, isn’t it? 🙂 Or even in our heads…

  • Vinodini Iyer
    16 May 2014 at 12:25 pm

    This predicament seems familiar…the best of us get tongue tied in situations where we need to speak up.
    Interesting read 🙂

    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 11:43 pm

      It’s funny that the words flow when we write though, isn’t it? 🙂 Or even in our heads…

  • Rajlakshmi
    16 May 2014 at 2:20 pm

    I love how your post is so honest 🙂 seems you dipped the quill in your heart and wrote it 🙂
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    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 11:43 pm

      Thanks Raj…beauty of free write, I suppose. Comes straight from the heart… 🙂

  • Rajlakshmi
    16 May 2014 at 2:20 pm

    I love how your post is so honest 🙂 seems you dipped the quill in your heart and wrote it 🙂
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    • Psych Babbler
      16 May 2014 at 11:43 pm

      Thanks Raj…beauty of free write, I suppose. Comes straight from the heart… 🙂

  • Beloo Mehra
    16 May 2014 at 4:37 pm

    This is fabulous. A straight-from-the-heart kind of write-up. Very well done. To muster the courage to speak up those yet-unspoken feelings/thoughts isn’t easy many times. That’s where writing then down can help, I feel 🙂
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    • Psych Babbler
      17 May 2014 at 12:02 am

      Thanks Beloo… It’s so not easy and even though I keep telling myself to do it, I still have a long way to go! 🙂

  • Beloo Mehra
    16 May 2014 at 4:37 pm

    This is fabulous. A straight-from-the-heart kind of write-up. Very well done. To muster the courage to speak up those yet-unspoken feelings/thoughts isn’t easy many times. That’s where writing then down can help, I feel 🙂
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    • Psych Babbler
      17 May 2014 at 12:02 am

      Thanks Beloo… It’s so not easy and even though I keep telling myself to do it, I still have a long way to go! 🙂

  • Raindrop
    16 May 2014 at 6:42 pm

    Lovely post, PB!
    I hope you summon the courage to say what needs to be said. All the best 🙂
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    • Psych Babbler
      17 May 2014 at 12:03 am

      Thanks Raindrop! Long time no see…I have to visit your blog. Been slack in the past month and a bit with the challenge really overwhelming me!

  • Raindrop
    16 May 2014 at 6:42 pm

    Lovely post, PB!
    I hope you summon the courage to say what needs to be said. All the best 🙂
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    • Psych Babbler
      17 May 2014 at 12:03 am

      Thanks Raindrop! Long time no see…I have to visit your blog. Been slack in the past month and a bit with the challenge really overwhelming me!

  • Usha Menon
    16 May 2014 at 9:02 pm

    An awesome post. Every body faces this sort of dilemma in life.
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    • Psych Babbler
      17 May 2014 at 12:03 am

      Thanks Usha…it helps knowing others go through similar feelings…

  • Usha Menon
    16 May 2014 at 9:02 pm

    An awesome post. Every body faces this sort of dilemma in life.
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    • Psych Babbler
      17 May 2014 at 12:03 am

      Thanks Usha…it helps knowing others go through similar feelings…

  • Bikram
    16 May 2014 at 11:33 pm

    yes and you dont want to live with that regret .. of WHAT IF .. so go for it and say it .. whats the worst that can happen.. at least one will know for sure if it was to be or not to be ..

    Bikram
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    • Psych Babbler
      17 May 2014 at 12:04 am

      True Bikram…I’d rather know either way than live with not knowing. Sorry for not visiting your blog…it’s good to see you back! 🙂 Will hop over to yours shortly.

  • Bikram
    16 May 2014 at 11:33 pm

    yes and you dont want to live with that regret .. of WHAT IF .. so go for it and say it .. whats the worst that can happen.. at least one will know for sure if it was to be or not to be ..

    Bikram
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    • Psych Babbler
      17 May 2014 at 12:04 am

      True Bikram…I’d rather know either way than live with not knowing. Sorry for not visiting your blog…it’s good to see you back! 🙂 Will hop over to yours shortly.

  • nabanita
    17 May 2014 at 6:00 pm

    This is so familiar…I feel like you have written about me..But you know i have spoken the unspoken and I’m happy I did 🙂 …You are becoming one of my favourite bloggers my dear 🙂 Love reading you
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  • nabanita
    17 May 2014 at 6:00 pm

    This is so familiar…I feel like you have written about me..But you know i have spoken the unspoken and I’m happy I did 🙂 …You are becoming one of my favourite bloggers my dear 🙂 Love reading you
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  • vishalbheeroo
    22 May 2014 at 8:32 pm

    This is exactly how I am and lost out on relations coz I fear of being rejected. I still get goose bumps before asking someone out and get o conscious in front of a crowd..I lack in communication skills. I can so much relate with your post.
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  • vishalbheeroo
    22 May 2014 at 8:32 pm

    This is exactly how I am and lost out on relations coz I fear of being rejected. I still get goose bumps before asking someone out and get o conscious in front of a crowd..I lack in communication skills. I can so much relate with your post.
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