Whenever I see a police car, my anxiety increases two-fold and my heart starts beating very quickly. As if I’m doing something wrong. Fact is, I am not. But it doesn’t matter. I still feel anxious until they go away. Since I started driving, I have been pulled over for random-breath tests about 5 times. And every single time I have been bloody nervous.
Even though I know I have not had any alcohol!
Being a P-plater, I am supposed to have zero blood alcohol. So I never drink and drive. But even so, I worry when pulled over. As if scared that the breathalyser will pick up some alcohol I might have had a day or two ago. Or sometimes, a week ago. Last week, on Monday after work, I was pulled over for this. And the last drink I’d had was on the Friday night. Yet, there was the anxiety. Increased heart rate and all.
Only relaxing once I was given the green light to go.
This morning, there was a police car on the opposite side of the road while I was waiting at a set of traffic lights. They were trying to help out a situation where a semi-trailer had broken down. And just seeing the cops standing next to my car whilst talking to the roads authority was enough to increase my anxiety.
And I find myself wondering — why is that?
It’s not like I’ve ever committed a crime. [Ok, so I did steal gum when I was 7 but I confessed and got duly punished!!] So why should I feel anxious?
Is it just a cop thing?
Or is it just me being weird?
Does this ever happen to you? Do share. And tell me it does!
Until next time,