And yet, pretty much in the first couple of sessions conducting the assessment, as a psychologist I expect my clients to disclose all.
Most individuals who are ready to seek help, do disclose. But of course, this brings along with it a lot of pain. In some cases, young people have not disclosed their thoughts to anyone prior to the session with the psychologist. And we happen to be the first. Just hearing their thoughts out loud opens the floodgates. Some of the parents have held negative beliefs about themselves as parents for years. And it doesn’t come out until they speak about it individually in session. For the ones not ready to disclose, when they eventually do, there can be tears. It is overwhelming I suppose to finally come to terms that you may have a problem.
I still remember in my third year B.A. when I had chosen psychology as my major, one of my biggest concerns was dealing with clients who cry. Given that I can cry very easily myself, I wasn’t sure how I would react to clients crying in session. Would I cry too? If so, I’d be an awful therapist! Unfortunately, there was no way of knowing because I wouldn’t be seeing any clients until my second semester in Masters. Almost 2 years away.
I can happily say that I don’t cry when my clients break down. I’ve probably come close only once [Transference-countertransference issues]. After all, the clients who cry in front of their therapist don’t want their therapist to cry — they’ll probably end up feeling guilty! Of course, it doesn’t mean I’m unemotional and their stories don’t affect me. Some stories do. In fact, a large majority does. But that’s why I get supervision. That’s why all psychologists here get supervision.
The reason for this post though was mainly because I found myself thinking how privileged I am that teenagers, kids and their parents trust me enough to share their fears and their sorrows. It is a privilege I don’t take lightly. It is an honour to be that person they choose to talk to [And yes, it is a choice because some people will choose to not talk if they don’t feel comfortable].
And all this again reminds me that despite the difficult times and the difficult clients and sometimes feeling hopeless, I still love the job I do.
Until next time,
Cheers!!!
Comfy
21 April 2011 at 9:57 pmFrom what little I see of your working life from this blog, I think you do an amazing job. Helps lots of people and made a difference. And that in my mind is what give one the satisfaction of a job well done.
Psych Babbler
21 April 2011 at 10:16 pmAw thanks Comfy! Most times I admit I don’t see much change as we deal with
very entrenched mental health problems that run through the family. But I am
now telling myself that even small changes are good…and even if these kids
and teens remember something from their sessions with me in future, it’ll be
worth it.
Jake George
21 April 2011 at 11:13 pmI think all of us are afraid of being judged and its probably what holds us back from opening up to people be it when socializing with colleagues or talking to close friends. And since they are part of our daily lives theres always that human tendency to want to control the way you are perceived.
I think you are incredibly lucky, not just cuz you get to be the shade for a lot burnt souls out there but cuz you love what you do, thats one of the only two things you need to be content in life …
rohini
22 April 2011 at 12:08 amyes! I agree with comfy. You must be an awesome psychologist. I
think if you could let the person unburden his mind, give him a listening ear and few kind words, that itself makes all the difference.
It is not easy to open up your thoughts and emotions to a stranger, esp when seeing into their eyes. are they judging you? are they mentally mocking you? are they replaying the images? what will their response be!!
you are making a difference in their lives. never doubt that.
Psych Babbler
22 April 2011 at 12:33 amI do recognise I am lucky Jake in that I love what I do. And yeah, it’s that
fear of being judged by people that definitely holds us back …I think all
of us for instance have a mask at work…we may show bits of our real self
but there’s other things that we are not going to show our colleagues
including some fears and anxieties…
Psych Babbler
22 April 2011 at 12:36 amThanks Rohini…I don’t think I’m an awesome psych by any means. I do think
it’s important to be non-judgemental and create a safe environment for them
in order to be able to open up. After all, that’s when we disclose our
secrets to friends…once we feel like we are not going to be judged and
feel safe to talk.
Emily Rose
22 April 2011 at 2:52 amAs a nurse, I sometimes feel like a psychologist, and I too am always amazed at how freely people open up and share their whole selves with me. But a listening ear is all you need sometimes! Thankfully I can cry with my patients, cause I’m a big baby when I see someone cry!
I like your blog a lot- gives me some food for thought…
~Emily
http://www.ayearinthanks.blogspot.com
starry eyed
22 April 2011 at 3:07 amLoved this post. I somehow feel it’s easier to open up to a stranger (a counselor or therapist, I mean) than someone familiar! Maybe because the familiar people already know us and have judged us as this and that, and it might shock them to know underlying feelings and old experiences?
Psych Babbler
22 April 2011 at 5:27 amI’m sure you are like a psych too Emily…after all, listening to people is something done by a few health professionals. I didn’t realise you could cry with your patients! 🙂 Psychs can’t do that. And thanks for the lovely comment about the blog. Do keep visiting. I must say, I love your idea for your blog…we aren’t grateful enough!
Psych Babbler
22 April 2011 at 5:29 amThanks Starry! I do agree that it is sometimes easier to talk to a stranger as long as the person doesn’t feel like they are being judged.
Bikram
22 April 2011 at 12:44 pmYou doing a lovely job, it indeed is sometimes to control yourself but then one has to be strong and be professional, Indeed I too sometimes face a situation where ANGER comes and all you want to do is BEAT THE ____ out of a person, imagine a dingy room the mum and dad sitting in there own pee, and all the drug peraphernalia lying around and in a corner a small baby is crying for lack of attention….
Or you have jsut taken a person and they do nothing but swear at you all the time the choices swear words …
Yes its is awful and i have come pretty close where i have lost my cool lucky my collegues are there to take over…
You indeed doing a lovely job well done 🙂
Bikram’s
Titaxy
22 April 2011 at 1:47 pmIf I haven’t told you already, then let me tell you that I admire you immensely for what you do. It takes a lot of patience, even courage to be on your shoes. You make a difference and I can’t help but look at you with awe for that!
Little Finger
22 April 2011 at 11:48 pmWhat ever you said is so true. I once met a psychologist and I cried more than I spoke, it was my first meet and that one visit changed my life for ever. I can’t thank enough all you wonderful people who change ppl like me in one session. You guys are doing a great job you should be proud of..
Psych Babbler
23 April 2011 at 2:45 amThanks for that Bikram. Can I ask — what is your profession? Are you a cop? I’ve heard of things cops see and it’s like what you described. And it’s a zillion times worse than what I probably see and hear. I hear the aftermath from the baby (who is a child/teen) that you are talking about — you probably see it first hand.
Psych Babbler
23 April 2011 at 2:45 amAw thanks T! You can’t see but I’m blushing 😛
Psych Babbler
23 April 2011 at 2:53 amI’m glad you found the psych helpful Little Finger! And thanks for the lovely comment… 🙂
Prateek
23 April 2011 at 11:23 pmI’ve never thought of it but since you raised this point; I am thinking it’s strange how people open up to a psychologist.
Psych Babbler
24 April 2011 at 5:03 amI think Prateek as someone else mentioned (I think it was Starry) you feel
more comfortable with a stranger who is non-judgemental and doesn’t know you
compared to someone who already knows you and may be surprised at your
thoughts and feelings. I know several teens think they will be disappointing
their parents if they let them know they are depressed.
komal bhatia
28 April 2011 at 4:32 pmFrom my personal experience , i would say sometimes its easier to break down in front of a psychologist and speak with an open heart because you know he/she is not their to judge you!! And crying definately helps!!
And even i cant see people cry in frnt of me.. even my friends!!
But you seem to be doing a really gud job!!
Psych Babbler
29 April 2011 at 1:25 amYeah Komal, I guess it’s the non-judgemental attitude that helps people open
up a lot more easily. And true, I haven’t seen friends crying in front of me
although I’ve seen clients! Funny that… 🙂