So it’s the first day back and the pressure has already begun. Had an anxiety-provoking situation towards the end of the day which unfortunately I cannot discuss on here. Let’s just say I was so anxious that on the drive back home and the 30 minutes before going for the fitness class, I was nauseous. I honestly thought I was going to throw up because of the anxiety. And that has only happened before a few exams in my undergrad and HSC. Sigh.
Unfortunately, it’s nothing I can control at the moment so I’ve resorted to praying. I tend to speak to God(s) when I can’t control things that worry me. As always my mind goes to the worst-case scenario. And that’s never helpful.
On the plus side, I attended the first fitness circuit class. It was fun! And it helped with the anxiety for sure. Love those endorphins! It was fast-paced and I felt muscles I hadn’t felt in yonks! I also realised just how unfit I am. Met some nice people too so looking forward to the next 8 weeks of this class and will probably continue each term. It also made me remember why I loved the gym so much. Especially the weights. I am going to try and save (once I sort the flatmate issue) and then see if I can afford a gym membership next year.
Work is getting to me though. I really think I need one full-time job rather than the two part-time ones. Oh well. In the meantime, I’m going to have to toughen up and deal with the shit dealt by clients.
Until next time,